Guess what? I just picked up my blood work today and emailed them to my doctor, so once he's checked them out I should get my prescription for TestoGel! So what that essentially means is that I could potentially be starting testosterone by the end of the week, and most definitely by the end of … Continue reading I’ve Got Jitters (I’m Starting T)
Fuck off are they. Don't be silly now. This is going to be an absolute rant because nothing makes me angrier than cisphobia or heterophobia or white guilt and all of that. IT IS NOT THE MAJORITY'S FAULT THAT YOU'RE DIFFERENT. STFU you silly goose. As you all know, I am a transgender man, I … Continue reading RE: “All Cis People Are Transphobic”
So... I honestly feel the best that I've probably felt in years. Making this decision has lifted a huge weight off of my shoulders and I really think I'm doing the right thing and it's going to be worth the money. Little bit of context - on Tuesday morning I woke up to a letter … Continue reading Deciding to Start my (Medical) Transition Privately.
I don't want to live like this anymore. Whatever good happens to me, whoever I get close to and however many positive things in my life it all circles back to me sabotaging myself, me crying on my own in the dark, me wanting to cut myself or the likelihood of my future hanging in … Continue reading My Experience With Suicidal Thoughts
So I should really preface this with an apology. I dropped off the face of the earth for a hot minute, but I needed time to reflect, do what I needed to do and really find myself. As I sit here in this gorgeous public park in Luxembourg City, I feel as if everything is … Continue reading She sees me.
DISCLAIMER: I IDENTIFY MYSELF AS A TRANSMEDICALIST BECAUSE I LEGITIMATELY BELIEVE THAT DYSPHORIA, BOTH PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ARE A KEY COMPONENT TO BEING TRANSGENDER. I'M NOT TRYING TO DEVALUE ANYBODY ELSE'S IDENTITY. I AM NOT THE KING OF GENDER, I JUST WANT TO SHARE MY OPINION, DO WHAT YOU WANT I REALLY DON'T CARE. “ … Continue reading Why I Identify as TRUSCUM
I can't blame the people in my life for not doing this, but it's something I've been thinking about more and more over the last few weeks. I never thought I'd be the kind of person to say something like "dead name" or "birth name", but I've started to do it more and more. Everyone … Continue reading Censoring my Birth Name
So, if you're aware of this blog and my other posts, you will probably kniw that although my family are, as they keep reminding me, trying very hard to adjust to my name and pronouns, it's taken a long time for us to get here and they historically have not been the most important. I … Continue reading My Wonderful Support System
So before I start, I should mention that this post is partly inspired by a video called "Stop Coming Out" by Ash Hardell (Check it out here) and partly by my own experience with people in the past couple of days that has got me thinking. I've been out now for almost a year, obviously … Continue reading This isn’t about you…. everything else is.
Gender Dysphoria noun MEDICINE 1. the condition of feeling one's emotional and psychological identity as male or female to be opposite to one's biological sex. Do you ever wonder what you did to deserve this? I'm sure you have. 9/10 days I will think that at one point or another. Most days I'll text one … Continue reading My Daily Battle with Crippling Dysphoria